So, this week was okay.
I binged 3 times (on cereals and vegetables), and last night binge really scared me, I hurt myself pretty bad so I really need to stop doing that. I throw away all the food I still had, apart from green beans. I will try to fast as much as I can, the only things I will buy are juices, and some fruits.
I got one week break and my flatmate isn't here. That means I have the flat for myself, so nobody to hear me puke. That's why I don't trust myself with food right now. All I want to do since she went away is stuff myself with vegan burggers and french fries.
And I need new clothes. That's funny, I know I lost a lot of weight, but when I look in the mirror, I don't see a change. All I see is fat, fat, fat... And that disgust me and I can't believe I was 30lbs heavier only monthes ago! I mean I'm so ugly now, I don't even want to know what I looked like before, I'm glad I don't have any pictures!
Anyway, I might not see a change, but my pants do. Even my panties do. And I don't want to go shopping because I'm fat.