I hate myself. Yesterday started well. I had only 300 cal for lunch, only vegetables. But I ate too much, it was only 300cal, but it was a lot of vegetables, and I drank a lot of water. I felt really full. 

I accidently purged. 

I bent down to pick up my fork, and tada! Everything was on the fucking floor.

Then I spend the last 2 days b&p. 

The record to beat is 2 days without binge.

I'm addicted to sugar, seriously. So I bought diet soda, the thing with a lot of aspartame in it. I know it's bad for the health, but when I feel like I need sugar, I drink this and it refrains me from binging. Little by little I will try to use it less and less. But right now I don't see any other solution. I really want to stop b&p!

And I changed my ugw to 100lbs. I know it's too little. But I don't care. I want to disapear.